what?! where?! how!!?

Already few months I worked and... for quite a long time... I didn't update my blog :)

last few months i work like hell...really! a lot of things to do and a lot of them incomplete :'( i just wondering what's my character in my current life. OL?? work in a office as an admin forever?? just like this?! i'm think this kind of lifestyle is definitely not what i want!! i want some thing interesting and things...job that really i love and like.

I try to plan few decision for myself. I wish to go Canada and take my MBA course there. But i'm worried what to do if i'm failed in study..worried about the financial...and checked. I can't work off-campus before 6 months i become a full time students there. Tuition fees are expensive, rental rate in BC is terrible!! how?!! i have no enough money!!

or i just apply a travel working permit to Australia or Canada for 6 months...plucking apples, tomatoes there..earning USD$25+ per box XD

I wish to take RAD CBTS too..teach those lil girls and owned a ballet studio myself. why not? work as a full time ballet teacher like my teacher did. learn new dance, new step..learn sew, design and make new tutu, new costume...do new makeup..doing performance and shows. i think i be like it. i love to be a planner always:)

but...

where should i go?? why am i always confused?? i just like..standing at a T-junction and has no idea where i should go..which way to choose. what is the better choice for me???